YoUr FiNgErS On tHe tRiGgEr LoVe

Yeah... so the last time I was on this I think was??? 2 yrs ago? Yeah! Anyway I guess I'll just fill in the blanks for the last, lets say, oh year. In 2008 I Started nursing school and on my first day everything was going fuckin fine until I got home and my parents had a big boxing match and decided to split. I dropped outta school 2 months later. A couple of months after than my grandfather was put on hospice and to help out financially I quit my job and took care of him until his last days. SO... I started school again and then about a week into it my sister's boyfriend decided to quit takin his meds for schizophrenia (nice) and hang himself. Im just waiting now for a flood or fiery comet from the sky. Other than that Im peachy.

Last year I didnt like my voting options so I didnt even bother to register. But this year I decided to register. Im pretty much liberal to the core, so its difficult to find a candidate that I can agree with. This year however there was one person who's political views very well matched my own, no scandels included. Yes kiddies that is Barack Obama. If you have your doubts on the guy you can visit the link below and check out his position on certain issues. Personally I dont think you'll find a better candidate.

So I had to make my first appointment to see the gynecologist. It was probably the most action Ive had all week. Too bad it was a woman probably in her late 50's. It was really akward for me and the entire time I kept on laughing, like hysterically. People outside were probably wondering if there was actuaclly a gynecology appoinment going on or... yeah, anywho it wasnt as bad as I thought it would be, eh, maybe Im exaggerating a little there.

I have a friend who will remain nameless who is lusted by all men. I swear to you she could turn a gay man straighter than a parallel line. Her beauty, wit, and charm, its unendless. However I know something that they do not. No matter how much you give her, it will never be enough. She manipulates, lies, and cheats. She always wants more, and in the end comes to me to give it to her. You could probably give your life for the girl, but I know that her generousity would be as thick as a patch of thin ice. I try to warn them, but they never listen, they only laugh at me. It is only months later that when I see them that they finally understand what I was trying to save them from. A cold and unfeeling love.

If you followed along with my previous entries you will have known that on May 21st I got to go see My chemical romance in Seattle. Shit went crazy half way through 'The Bleds' performence.  Kids were droppin like flies from heat exhaustion and dehydration. Security was throwing water in the crowd to cool them down. Then when Gerard entered onstage on a patient bed everybody went crazy. The crowd lunged forward towards the stage and the Mosh Pit was practically swept of its feet. And where was I during all of this? Smack in the Middle of the fucker and I survived to tell the tale. 

 

 

So if any of you have read my previous journals you would have been aware that I was going to Cali May 15th to see the Lush J* and his king-shit side kick MissE. I took a plane down on May 12th and stayed with some friends until the concert date. The Roxy didnt look like much on the outdside, but inside it was fuckin crazy. Me and Cami stayed for Jeffree's show and left when it was over. I didnt get to meet the MissE which comepletely fucked up my night:(  All I got was this T-shirt that I payed for. Well we cant always get what we want.

So my sister decided to dry the fuckin dogs coat on the oven burner and leave it there while we watched a movie. Of course she didnt tell me or I wouldve put the fucker in the dryer. So twenty minutes later I smell smoke and ask katie if shes cooking something she replies, "Oh, Shit!' she leaps off of the sofa and up stairs. Ten seconds later I hear her screaming my name so I go upstairs and see this ugly, green sweater in flames on the stove. She grabs it runs around the house, I open the door she runs to the side of the house and throws it onto the lawn. Mind you my neighbors are watching this. I grab the exstinguisher and fire away at the coat. After that the nieghbors see my sister and I come from the back covered in white shit. Thats how my day usually goes when staying at home.

For those of you who dont know I was diagnosed with Melanoma two years ago. I have three pretty good sized scars on my neck and back to prove it. Dr. Lassinger called and asked that I come in just for a check-up. They think I might have it again, they're not so sure. We're going to schedule an appointment to have the surgery then I guess wait for results. I mean thats all you can do, right?

So... this is it. 'The End'. I didn't really think we'd ever get here, but we did sooner than I thought. Your probably going to laugh at this and slowly walk away but truthfully your thinking the same thing I am. 'How did it ever come to this?', 'How did we ever get here?'. Remember its the decisions we make that shape our destiny and this was destined to happen. Im not sorry for anything that Ive said and done, nor regret anything in the past and niether should you. Its both showed who we really are.

So I've been trying to live this life just to find out its not who I even am. I mean it was ruining everything for me not to mention it wasnt what I even wanted for myself. I was lying to my parents, partying, causing fights, I mean who could want this. Who can smile at someone one second and then completely backstab them the next? What kind of person does that? Thats not what I wanted and thats not what Im going to do anymore.

This is Getting tiring, Gerard Way has yet to say who he is seeing in his personal relationships. He has recently broken up with his girlfriend of six years and that is all that can be verified. Whether or not he is dating Eliza I doubt it. The pictures of him and Kate Reeves have been speculated as photoshopped. But until we have heard the man say it himself leave it alone. 

Finally after all this waiting My chemical Romance is coming back to Seattle. I cant wait, although Im going to have to hold the excitement in for another three months. This is my second concert, My first was Smashing Pumpkins, I know its sad...

I am going to admit I love rock & roll, heavy metal, and alternative rock. However I do not waste my breath on discussing the musicians personal life's. I mean You would think that the fans would be inspired to do something. Why cant we be inspired to do something instead of discussing whats the latest 411 on our hot lead vocalists?